June 12th, 2005
doctor says i'm fine
yesterday Mama and i went to our OB for a check-up (in case you were wondering, i've been consulting with this specialist for quite some time already becuase i have a super irregular cycle-- once in every 8 months...haha tama bang ikwento...whatever.) when we arrived (that was past noon), the secretary told us to have our lunch first because the doctor wasn't there yet. and so we did, and came back around 1. well guess what, because she had so many patients, i only got to see her around 4:30 already! (as it turns out, there were about 30+ people on the list, and i was #28.) to make things worse, my phone's battery got drained at around 1 (Mama forgot to bring her cellphone too), and i didn't bring anything to read because i didn't imagine that we would wait THAT long. so for 3.5 agonizing hours i did nothing but sleep and stare at other people or complain. (yeah i know i only made the situation worse by doing so, but i really can't help it because i had many other things to do)
thankfully, she didn't "feel" anything wrong with my uterus or whatever organ during the check-up. (don't ask how she did that.) and then she went on to tell me that she has had some patients who have their period like twice a year only but have no problems getting pregnant. she said that the reason why my cycle is so irregular is maybe because i live a stressful life, and when Mama said that i'm in med proper now, she said jokingly, "naku, lalo na. bakit kasi yan ang pinili mo." then she added that since i can't do anything about the lifestyle i've chosen and all the stress that it'll bring me, i should just strive to live a balanced lifestyle-- to eat right, to get the rest i want (i wish!), because in the end health is wealth pa rin. she also asked me to do some lab tests to check my FSH and LH levels (hello zoo 30!) but i'd get the results on tues pa. by age 21 she's hoping that my period will be more regular and i'll need to have a yearly ultrasound by then.
i got so amazed at the idea that we people would actually waste so much of our time just to wait for these certain other people called "doctors" to check on us, and probably prescribe some meds and speak a word of advice or two. it's like our lives are at their mercy, when in fact, we're all vulnerable in the face of sickness, and death.